When you tell someone what a relationship should feel like, or what it should be, what do you say? How do you clearly define or describe something that's different for everyone? I took a stab at it a while back, by saying "a relationship is two people who want to be close to one another mentally, emotionally, and physically, making that desire a reality as often as they both want to".

You call when you want to hear their voice. You make plans to meet when you want to see them. Sometimes you lay in bed, side by side, and fend off the cold and dark together, as people have done for centuries.

I sat at home Friday night for a good reason. I stayed up til 3 AM next to my phone for a good reason. It didn't ring until the next day for a good reason. I walked away from dinner that night feeling confused for what I hope is also a good reason. I sat at home again and again the next two nights for some reason. Today, thinking about it stings. It remains to be seen whether that's for a good reason or no reason at all. I hope for the latter.

Guess we'll see.