Judgment

I need a quick brain-dump here. I have always had pretty good judgment. Sometimes I regret decisions I make, only to find out much later that they were absolutely the right ones. I really hope that the decision I've made tonight turns out to be one of those.

Sometimes I worry that putting too much faith in my judgment has caused me to pass up a lot of really good times, though. Sure, it saves me from grief, but I can't help but wonder if the costs outweigh the benefits occasionally. I wish for a day that I could just act on impulse and see what happens. I hardly ever act on impulse. The vast majority of my actions are premeditated, cross-examined, weighed and balanced before I ever take them. It would be interesting to see how different my life would be if that wasn't the case.

Prime example: earlier tonight I told someone completely truthfully that I would love to be a taxi driver. I would. I think it would be a good career for me. The rational side of my mind tells me that I would have trouble down the road (pun intended) because of the financial situation, but the idea of driving around, listening to music, talking to strangers all day for a living still interests me.

I also neglected to tell that same person something I really, REALLY want to, because I don't know the outcome. It's a complete wild card, and I refuse to play it simply because I can't create an exit strategy without knowing the possible endings. That bothers me.

And I'm spent! Be sure and read my Chicago post below if you haven't, it's a much more entertaining one than this.